Currently, I am in a state of pure happiness and freedom. I feel alive. I feel..awesome! The last time I felt like this was before I met my son’s father. But you know what, he’s not even the one to blame. I’ve realized that I’ve constantly said that he has caused so much havoc and disfunction in my life, when really, it was I. I haven’t made the best or the smartest decisions in the past two years. I’ve allowed situations to cloud my better judgement. Today, I am strong. Today, I feel strong. I’ve been feeling wonderful all this week. Despite the drama that recently occurred Tuesday night with him, I’ve been on this natural high. I forgot what it was like to kick back and just hang out with people who actually love me. I love them. It’s good to know that I can count on them to help me defeat my troubles.
I thank me–for finally letting go, for planning ahead and remaining organized, for following through with what I need to do and not letting others’ situations and problems bring me down. I am financially stable, I’m in school, and I have a job that I love and that provides me with that financial stability. Now, the only thing I have left to do is get a car. (That should be happening this week or next week, and yes..I am so EXCITED!) I am the only person that has been holding myself from regaining my emotional stability and independence. Now that I have a stronger grip on life, LET’S GET IT!