I presume that I am ready for a relationship. But, the only problem that persists is that I haven’t found anyone worthy of my time. I’ve briefly dated guys and all of them were different–tall, short, light skinned, dark skinned, etc. Initally, I was impressed with ALL of them in a different and unique way. I was genuinely intrigued. I was absorbed with wanting to know more. As of now, those feelings have ceased. Now, I’m sickened by the ringtone I hear when they call. As a result, I’m back where I started–single. Though I’m not really complaining, I’d like some affection every now and then. I want something real, something authentic..something just for me.

I know what I want and I know what type of guy I’m looking for. Amongst those that I have encountered, all that existed was immaturity, insecurity, selfishness, and napoleon complexes. Color me picky, but I reserve the right to protect my feelings and my heart. I am owed the same affection and regard that I give. From my understanding and my beliefs, a relationship is a syndication. I feel that if I’m going to be associated with anyone, I demand that reprocity exists and remains for the duration of that association; however, that seems impossible. I know I’m not asking too much. With all that I do and that I have going on, it wouldn’t be just or imparitial to my own well-being if I allowed another to waste my dear and valuable time. Why would I even allow myself to sit back and accept a faux or psuedo type love..AGAIN? I rebuke that for the sake of my sanity!

I have defined my worth, I have set my standards, and I hold steadfast to my morals. Consequently, these values, these morals, and these standards appear to be intimidating. It’s quite disappointing to envision something developing with someone only to embark upon the fact that the person is not who you met initially. Nevertheless, I am grateful that I can discover such before I get myself too deeply involved. I’m still hopeful and optimistic. I’m complete regardless. My sense of solidarity will always remain!

Greek Show. Tonight. Southern University.
It starts at 7:30 but since I’m late for EVERYTHING, I’ll probably miss a few acts.

I’m excited! I wish I could post pictures but one of the kids misplaced my camera. Hopefully, I could get a video in or something.