He’s used to filet mignon. It’s going to be hard to go back to “HAMBURGER HELPER!!!!!!!”

*I’m still trying to figure out why I am shamlessly making random posts like this is my twitter!

– My sister is moving out this weekend and right around the street from me which is pretty cool and convenient for me. I have a lot of work to do to Imari’s room as I had planned to do before. I have a lot of cleaning up to do. . a lot of clothes to wash and hang up in his closet as well as my daughter’s and I’m already reluctant to getting it done.

– I’m not sure if I want to attend the Bayou Classics this year. My friends have already booked a room on Bourbon street but I’m just not up to it. Maybe it’s because of my period that I’m so friggin’ emotional and drained of energy in junction with other occurrences I shouldn’t have allowed to happen and now I’m dealing with the results of my decisions made in a weak moment. Grrr! :reallypissed:

– I was able to get all of our assignments done. I’m still working on my 15 minute presentation due next week. Hopefully, when this monthly BITCH leaves I’ll be more enthusiastic about the end of the semester. Remind me on Sunday that I only have about 2 weeks left and I’ll cheer then. :-/

– My anxiety has seemed to resurface. I’m tense in my neck, my heart is ALWAYS racing, and it’s rather difficult to catch my breath at times. I hate taking the medicine that I have to take because it makes me sleepy and I find myself sleeping my day away when there is too much that needs to be done. I wish I was healthy. I wish I wasn’t at risk for diabetes and I wish I wasn’t at risk for a hyper thyroid. Last week, these thoughts did not matter to me. But now, I have this BITCH to thank for the reminder!!!

– Work is getting boring to me. I am tempted to turn off the power to this computer at my desk and just walk out. . but I just received my Entergy bill in the mail. . that made me put the pictures back up on my wall and remain logged into my computer.

I cannot WAIT until this day is over with. I’m ready to wash the day away by relaxing in some hot water and then sleeping soundly! Hopefully, when I awake, SHE will be gone and I can enjoy life as I did before Sunday! I guess the passing of my Aunt has really taken a toll on me..I hate death and I hate dealing with it. Most of all, I hate to see my dad sad because I never do. I’m so used to him being strong for all of us. It’s different and frustrating because I don’t know what to say or do. How do you console a MAN after he has lost the only woman had had after his mom died when he was 6 years old? Hugs and “I love you’s” don’t seem sufficient to me even though they might be. . and this is all making me angry!

I’m all over the place with this post. But somehow, to me, it’s more organized than my life right now. I need to regain composure! Yesterday!