I was talking to my friend about me opening up my heart and tearing down these walls that I’ve built and actually allowing someone to get close to me. In the midst of all of that, I posted a status on facebook regarding this revelation I seemed to have embarked upon. Now, there was a lot of feedback that really doesn’t validate the title of this post, so I’ll skip ahead.

Carla R Buckner is going to tear down these walls and let someone in..this month..no, the end of this month..no, that’ll be my New Year’s resolution, or maybe I’ll wait until the summer, or maybe when it gets cold again..sigh**

And here is the meaning of this post:

Now, instead of embarrassing him on my page in front of all my friends, I decided to just leave it with a simple, Nope. It wasn’t me. Mind you, “Supaman” does not have a job nor does he go to school. He lives at home with his mom where he is satisfied by playing XBOX 360 ALL DAY. I’ll admit that he does put down the controller when night falls. However, that is only to change his clothes for the club.

Now correct me if I’m wrong, but there is NOTHING productive that occurs throughtout this guy’s day so why I should I even waste my time with conversations and hang-out sessions? I work full-time plus overtime, I go to school full-time, and I tend to my children all the time. If I can make the time to get all of this done, someone without kids or without ANY responsibilities can certainly find something constructive to do with their time.

I could have explained why I stopped talking to him but he’s heard it all before. He’s heard all of this before and still feels that his life is productive. Granted, there is someone for everyone in this world, even slackers. However, I’m not the slacking type. I’m a go getter. I’m ambitious. I have morals, goals, aspirations and dreams. I realize that the success that I want to attain and retain will take dedication and allegiance. Nevertheless, I’m willing to work hard towards obtaining that success.

With all that has been said, I can conclude that ANY grown ass man that crosses my path that is not equally determined and ambitious, can take the route in which he traveled to enter my life, and exit it. That is all.

Thanks to Randi, everything is fixed. I am still updating this theme and the header image is just a googled image that I’m actually thinking about keeping. I think I’ll edit or add something to it.