When your kids are gone, you turn into a pretzel and think you’re a model! Poor me!

That is what I was doing at 11:30 at night. I was SOOO bored that I felt like “imitating” a model and taking some random shot and posting it on Facebook. I think I paced up and down the hallway 20 times just to make myself tired. The silence inside my home was deafening. I was losing it without my children there. I finally got time to myself and I didn’t know what the hell to do. Then, I got a phone call. Let’s just say, I JUMPED at the opportunity. Of course you know, I’ll explain PRIVATELY!

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He called. We talked. Why do I feel like a little breezy in love? He explained that he had been trying to get in touch with me all weekend. I forgot all about my phone being dead and me leaving the charger at work. That’s one thing I miss about Cingular. I would have quickly switched my sim card. Anyways, he seemed like he was in a more joyous mood. Hearing his voice makes me melt… Can somebody please bust my bubble? LOL. I’m too happy!

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I haven’t talked to “the old friend” (C.W.) since it happened. I don’t want to seem like a nuisance by calling him so I sent him a text message explaining that if he ever needed me, I’ll be there for him. I truly meant it. But, I didn’t get a reply back which was expected. Maybe I’ll call later or maybe I’ll just wait for him to come around. If we were meant to be, we’ll cross paths again like we did unknowingly. As I said before, there was always a soft spot within me for him. I think there always will be.

School is starting this week. Yay! Well, not really but it also means I’ll be closer to graduation. I’m excited about the semester and my focus is really on point. Last semester, I was on the Dean’s List and that just made me want to do better. I almost cried when my mom expressed how proud she was of me. It’s not like I’ve never made the honor roll or the Dean’s List. Hell, I’ve been doing that all my life. But, she said what really made her happy was the fact that I was able to balance it all. Hell, I even surprised myself. Balancing working full-time, going to school full-time, and being a mother full-time is definitely not a cake walk. But, at the end of the day, I’m proud that the “bigger picture” remains within my view. If all goes as I plan, I will be graduating Fall 2010 or Spring 2011. I get all emotional when I think about it. :shy: