This has been the WORST semester that I’ve ever had. It’s apparent that I have definitely taken on more than I could bear. It probably wouldn’t have been so difficult if I wouldn’t have moved at the beginning of the semester. That is one thing that could have eliminated this unnecessary stress. There’s no way I could have avoided the illness that my son and I had to deal with or the death of my grandmother. Those unfortunate events were definitely inevitable. As a result, I know for a fact that I’m withdrawing from one class and I may consider withdrawing from another. This is something I definitely don’t want to do but these classes are overwhelming and since this semester will be ending in about 2 weeks, I don’t see me catching on or up anytime soon. On a lighter note, I do plan on attending summer school. Even if I don’t receive financial aid, I’ll definitely be able to save for two courses which is about $800. The money is due June 3 so I think this goal is pretty realistic.
If this semester has taught me anything, it is definitely to find a balance and not try to tip the scale. Sometimes, I feel like superwoman therefore I act like it, in a sense. In doing so, I lose track of everything that I’m involved in. I think I’m so hellbent on graduating in four years that I’m not taking my time. Last semester, I made the Dean’s list. This semester, I don’t see that happening and I’m prefectly fine with that. I’ve made the Dean’s List, Honor Rolls, and received so many acknowledgments for my academic acheivements that I’m not even upset. I brought this on myself. Hell, I don’t even consider this a failure. I’ll still have decent grades and now I know what I must do to maintain sanity for the upcoming semesters. I don’t care if my degree takes me 6 years to complete, the important thing is that I will have completion. Although I don’t plan on being a career student or in college for MORE THAN 6 years, I’ve realized that college is not a race, rather it’s a marathon. I just don’t plan on running all my life.
All I want is to have my parents and my family see me walk across the stage. All I want is for my children to see that they’ve helped me in the best ways they could because this is for them along with myself. All I want is to acheive this goal and start the rest of my life. Nevertheless, all I want is what I PLAN to attain. I’m putting the foolishness aside–facebook is on the verge of deletion, twitter is randomly updated, and my myspace account no longer exists. I stopped going out and I’ve lost a lot of “friends” like that, but I don’t care. I’m on a mission and anyone standing on the road of success that I’m traveling on WILL GET RUN OVER!