I met a guy Wednesday and he really left an impression on me. Every time I recollect the conversation we had, I smile..uncontrollably. What the hell is going on? I’ve talked to this guy ONCE and I’m smiling and giddy..I hate this feeling, but not as much as I like this feeling.

I’m saying all of this and I haven’t spoken to him since Wednesday. He has called, but I’m too scared to pick up. And since I’m so frighten to pick up, there’s no need to wonder if I’ve called him. I don’t know what to say. For the first time, I don’t know what the hell to say. I think I’m more nervous because of the simple fact that if I call, he’s going to want to come over or hang out, and that’s what I’m nervous about.

I think I’ll give him a call Sunday. I want to call him tonite, right now in fact, but as I’ve previously mentioned, I don’t want him to ask to come over because I don’t want him to come over…not this late at night.

I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I’m not supposed to feel like this. I can breathe quite well–my nose doesn’t need to be opened any wider.