Life has really gifted me with a whirlwind of emotions since the start of 2020. Indecisiveness. Joy. Anxiety. Excitement. Chaos. Tranquility. Navigating all of those emotions has been nothing short of interesting. Sometimes I know exactly how to get through what I’m feeling, other times I don’t. I think what’s been crucial to me keeping my head attached to my shoulders is that I know in the end, it all works out. It has to. It always has. And I guess that’s what gives me peace.

As I type this, I am currently 5 months pregnant and rummaging through all of the job boards looking for a new job. Why? Well because, in about 3 weeks, I’ll be laid off. I wasn’t truly shocked by the news because I sort of saw all of this coming with the way our company’s restructuring was going and the current pandemic. I know my manager and upper managment tried the best they could to get positions for the entire team. But there were only two, and I ranked 3rd. Disappointment that I’d have to leave the company filled me, especially when thinking about everything that I experienced at my previous job. It was easy to get attached since it was a job I absolutely loved and appreciated. I never wanted it to end. I never saw it ending. But, here I am.

I’ve been interviewing since Feb. Received one offer in March. But due to the pandemic, that’s been put on hold since they don’t currently have a training model that supports virtual learning. Knowing that, I’m not sure I would want to work with a company that has such antiquated processes, but it’s a paycheck and an upward position nonetheless. I am in my final round with a company based in FL that is a completely remote position. I am also waiting to hear back from my current company about a lateral move in a different division that is also remote. While I’d prefer to stay with the company, any remote position would due at this point, especially since Baby will be here in August. (hey Disa!)

While everything isn’t all good right now, it certainly isn’t all bad. Sure, we may have to cut back on some things, we definitely won’t have to go without. My new patio may have to wait until 4th quarter or maybe next year, but we have about 25 more years in this house so there’s plenty of time, God-willing. LOL! For a moment, I chastised myself for having another baby in a rocky situation when I thought I did all the preparation that I could.. but I realized how silly that was. For those of you that have been with me since 09, you’d agree that life looks and is totally different for me now, for us now. And to quickly discredit that based on a situation totally out of my control is unfair to who I am now. Even as I look back, as tough as things were, everything always worked out.

And knowing that they always have, I know that they always will.

Please stay safe during these turbulent times.
With Love,


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  1. Faith

    April 6, 2020 at 6:34 am

    It’s nice to hear from you! Huge congratulations! It’s nice to hear some happy news with everything happening currently. I have a feeling that you will have a new job/position very soon. I love your attitude, things will work out, they always do :) Throwing all positive vibes your way.

  2. Bee Lola

    April 6, 2020 at 9:44 am

    Oh my goodness! Congrats on the new baby! Sorry about your job, and I’m sending you all my love and light hoping you find something soon. I got laid off in 2017 and have been jobhunting without much luck ever since. Several interviews, ghosted by recruiters, dwindling savings and now the ‘Rona have me almost losing my mind. But I’m trying to stay focused on the positives and the things I CAN control. But again, I trust you got this and things will eventually work out in your favor.

  3. Disa Chantel

    April 6, 2020 at 8:17 pm

    OMG I THOUGHT THAT’S WHAT YOU WERE HINTING AT!!!! i literally just yelled at my screen!! congratulations, love. but also, i’m so sorry about your job. i know you’re an expert in your field, so i trust you’ll soon find a good fit elsewhere. you got this, mama. ?

  4. Andrea

    April 11, 2020 at 1:19 pm

    Congratulations on the pregnancy, Rae! I hope you’re resting and taking it easy as much as you can. That is such exciting news – even in this troublous, uncertain time. And really sorry to learn about your layoff but if this means you get to find a new and better that’s completely remote (assuming that’s the type of position you’d want) and get to make an upward move, then it ain’t all bad. It’s promising that you’re able to still land interviews during this time. Looking forward to more updates. :-)

  5. Amanda

    April 15, 2020 at 8:28 pm

    I’m bubbling over with joy! Every now and again, I check in to see what’s happening and if you and the family are doing well! Congratulations friend! And you are absolutely correct, things work themselves out! … I’m sending gifts (amazon registries are soooo convenient). If I see any remote jobs in the streets I’ll send them your way!
    Light & Love <3

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