1 week down – x amount to go.

The first week of school came and has flown by quickly and I really can’t complain, besides walking from the dome all the way to the back of campus where my department is, but I digress. I’ve scheduled 19 hours, and I was able to attend all of my classes last week without being totally wiped out. Unfortunately, I’ll have to drop a class because it conflicts with another, but I was up for the challenge to take the maximum amount of hours. A few weeks from now, I know that this is going to be the best decision to make. Hindsight is always 20/20.

I want this semester to be fun. I’ve noticed some much needed changes around the university that I am definitely impressed with, especially in my department. As I’m nearing the end of my undergraduate career, I want to make sure that I’ve had a fulfilling experience overall. I plan to be more active within my department as well as the university. I’ve reactivated my membership with ACM, which is an organization within our Computer Science department, and I’m planning on attending a few of the volleyball and football games this year. I guess I can blame my need to be more involved on all the extra time I have.

As far as my plans for this semester, I want to manage my time even better and of course, make the Dean’s List as I have with the previous semesters. I’ve also been thinking about my post-graduate plans and whether or not I want to attend grad school at Southern University. Before, this worried me because of financial reasons; but now, I no longer have certain financial obligations that I have to deal with and my schedule has a lot more flexibility. Everything just seems to be falling into place and I’m extremely grateful for that.

Today was a David Bitton & Ralph Lauren kind of day. I haven’t been in the best mood, but I refused to look the part. So, I grabbed my favorite pair of Buffalos, my coral pink button up, and took on the day. Last week has been an overwhelming week for me and it’s only going to get even more hectic. School is right around the corner for my daughter and I, and I’m in awe at all the things that I still need to get done. Life has me in a chokehold right now, and I’m not feeling that.

My plans fell through that I had for the weekend. My anemia is really draining the life out of me. I stayed in bed all day Sunday because I didn’t even have the energy to get up and do anything. I felt weak all day and when I had to get up to fix dinner for my son, the world spun around me. I’ve tried to avoid the medication, but it’s getting to the point where it’s becoming detrimental to my health. And with school starting, I need all the energy that I can get.

Needless to say, I’m feeling much better today. I’m still a little tired but eating smaller snacks throughout the day is helping me retain some energy. I am realizing now that’s it going to take more than snacks to put me in the range where I need to be. (The last time I was checked in May, I was at an 8 when I was supposed to be between 10 – 12.) It’s not that I’m stubborn, it’s just that I don’t want to feel dependent on any type of medicine. But, like I’ve mentioned, it’s getting to the point where I won’t even have a choice. My kids need me to be alright – I need me to be alright. So, I’m waving the white flag. Gimme the pills.

I seriously cannot WAIT until all of the moving, unpacking, and renovations are complete. Maybe if I clear out some of the clutter, it’ll make me feel better and I won’t feel so overwhelmed.