Today was a David Bitton & Ralph Lauren kind of day. I haven’t been in the best mood, but I refused to look the part. So, I grabbed my favorite pair of Buffalos, my coral pink button up, and took on the day. Last week has been an overwhelming week for me and it’s only going to get even more hectic. School is right around the corner for my daughter and I, and I’m in awe at all the things that I still need to get done. Life has me in a chokehold right now, and I’m not feeling that.

My plans fell through that I had for the weekend. My anemia is really draining the life out of me. I stayed in bed all day Sunday because I didn’t even have the energy to get up and do anything. I felt weak all day and when I had to get up to fix dinner for my son, the world spun around me. I’ve tried to avoid the medication, but it’s getting to the point where it’s becoming detrimental to my health. And with school starting, I need all the energy that I can get.

Needless to say, I’m feeling much better today. I’m still a little tired but eating smaller snacks throughout the day is helping me retain some energy. I am realizing now that’s it going to take more than snacks to put me in the range where I need to be. (The last time I was checked in May, I was at an 8 when I was supposed to be between 10 – 12.) It’s not that I’m stubborn, it’s just that I don’t want to feel dependent on any type of medicine. But, like I’ve mentioned, it’s getting to the point where I won’t even have a choice. My kids need me to be alright – I need me to be alright. So, I’m waving the white flag. Gimme the pills.

I seriously cannot WAIT until all of the moving, unpacking, and renovations are complete. Maybe if I clear out some of the clutter, it’ll make me feel better and I won’t feel so overwhelmed.

August is finally here which means the end of the summer is drawing near and I’m not quite ready for it to end. July seemed like the most challenging and longest month of my life! Not to mention, it rained for most of the month as well. Nevertheless, it’s been a great summer for the most part, especially since I didn’t have to worry about school assignments and tests. It felt good being able to pretty much wake up later than 8:00 AM, or should I say, lay in the bed past 8:00 AM. Being able to sleep past 8:00 AM is foreign to me.

I didn’t get a chance to travel as much as I would have hoped for, but that was mainly because I was in desperate need of some wheels. I believe that was one of the highlights of my summer. I’m still in awe about my acheivement. It feels good being able to get into a car that I know will start and get me here, there and everywhere. I have yet to put the Silver Bullet to the highway test, but the summer isn’t over just yet. Hopefully after church this Sunday, we’re headed to Florida, or Mississippi, before they go back to school. That’ll at least give them something to share with their little friends when they return to school next week.

There’s a lot to be done this week. Besides getting settled in the house, I still need to get school supplies for my daughter, clothes, shoes, hair accessories – and not to mention, my son is going to need some things to for his school. As for me, school starts soon and returning to take on a new semester creates an indifferent feeling for me. I’m ready to return, but coincidentally, I could definitely go for a few more weeks before I have to return to such responsibilities. As with the start of any semester, I plan to remain organized. One of the things that I’m excited about, though, is shopping for school supplies. I’m a nerd and I can spend hours in Office Depot testing out pens, Sharpie markers, and the like.

The ending of the summer is always bittersweet to me, though. I was able to appreciate every event that has occurred. The smiles, the laughter, the tears, the accomplishments, the triumphs, the tribulations – everything. So besides the hot weather that permits cute summer outfits with bright colors, cookouts, late nights with daquiris, and weekend trips, my summers always present me with the opportunity to grow and to become a stronger person. It provides introspective moments, as well as time for self-reflection. And that, is what I look forward to each year.