I didn’t get to see Elmo’s Green Thumb last year because I had to work. So, my daughter saw it without me. =( But, this year I have purchased my tickets on a date and at a time that I can actually attend. Iyanna, Imari, and I are so EXCITED!
March 6, 2010
I won’t pretend I’m good at forgiving. But I can’t hate you, although I have tried. I still really, really love you. Love is stronger than pride..–Sade
Guilty of submission. I’m am amissed for succumbing to my true feelings. But, I am human. I am in complete opposition of how I want to feel. I wanted to forget him, to erase him from my thoughts, or to even make his entire existence and what we were, obsolete. As a result of my efforts, I am left to endure this unexpected reprisal. My first thought was to shun the responsibility of dealing with this actuality. But, what sense would it make to lie to myself but despise others who lie to me?
Act of submission. I sat in my bed, alone, last night. The silence was deafening. The darkness was blinding. I felt alone. I was so used to falling asleep to the melodic sounds of his heavy snoring. I missed that. I really, really missed that. I missed looking at him with his shirt off. I missed seeing his overnight bag in the right walk in closet and his Polo boots in the left. I HATED those boots but they looked so good on him. I missed his scent. And I swear, after staring at four blank walls because he was supposed to hang up my mirrors and pictures, I thought I smelled him. After snapping back into reality and convincing myself that I’m not crazy, I did what any woman would do–any woman who is smitten.
It took 6 words, 24 letters, and 3 puncutation marks to sum how I really felt about C.W. and relay it to him: x x x x, I really, really miss you.
It only took him three words to reward me for following my heart: I love you.
This is the reiteration.
8 Comments March 5, 2010
I was talking to my friend a few moments ago and she was really upset about the current state of this “relationship” that she has involved herself in.
Now, she had been dating this guy for the past three months and they’ve just made everything official a few weeks back. She said everything was fine–she did things for him, he did things for her, vice versa. Now recently, if I’m remembering correctly, she loaned this guy $500 for whatever reason because he claimed he really needed it. In my opinion, that’s an awful lot of money to loan to someone but she said she won’t ever loan what she’ll miss. I definitely dig that concept, but I digress.
Yesterday was Valentine’s Day and the guy didn’t call, text, or get her a gift and she’s all distraught about it. In a way, I didn’t think getting a gift on Valentine’s Day was a big deal. I’d rather a guy do something for me on a day OTHER THAN Valentine’s Day because to me, I think it’s a bit cliche and ridiculous to wait for a day to show someone that you really love them. Anyways, I told her it wasn’t a big deal but I can understand how she could be a little hurt because the guy didn’t call.
How would you feel?
15 Comments February 15, 2010
