Maybe I should take this time out to wish Iyanna and Imari a happy day. I should show appreciation for them teaching my how to love unconditionally, how to endure when it seems like things are at there worst and can never get better. Or, maybe I should thank them for loving me even when I feel as if I have failed at whatever.

Everyday is Mother’s Day because a mother has to be a mother EVERY DAY! I’d like to wish all of you mother’s a Happy, Glorious, and Blessed Mother’s Day and Every Day.

She also said she was going to do my toes JUST like hers. I doubt that I’d be able to walk around comfortably with Fruit Loops in between mine.

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Besides all of that, my family and I are still attending the Sesame Street show on Sunday. Before the show, we’re going to Louisiana Children’s Museum in New Orleans since it’s free. (Thanks Target!) We’re all excited. I’ve even invited my parents along. We all haven’t been anywhere together in a while so I’d figured this would be nice.

As I mentioned, Spring Break for me is next week but it looks like I’ll be spending it working. I won’t complain since I adore my job and I’m due for a raise pretty soon. I’ve been here a year so it’s definitely due. Another reason I’m not complaining is because I’ve earned vacation time. I can still save and take some trips this summer. Not to mention, my calendar is literally FILLED with events and things I have to do for next week. It’s apparent that I just need to have a little getaway so maybe I’ll take an inexpensive trip to Mississippi and visit the IP Casino.

I’m still in the process of finding a theme that I actually like. Well, I found a theme but a lot of my plugins don’t work with it. If my site looks funny, that is the reason. LOL. I’m also trying to get around to commenting on a few blogs that I’ve read. Somehow, I’d just prefer to lay down. =)

There is only so much my patience and my heart will allow. I no longer have a tolerance for this ignorance, this stupidity, and this nonsense. Am I angry? No. Am I jealous? No. Nevertheless, I give my blessing to ANY “woman” who loves a man that doesn’t take care of his kids but someone else’s. I’m leaving it all behind. I am walking away. White flag? I never surrender. But, when you know the battle is not worth winning, when you know the game is not worth bragging to those you have defeated, you fold..shamelessly.

I’ve been working overtime this whole month since the semester ended. I wanted to make Christmas special as I knew Imari’s father wouldn’t. It was Imari’s first Christmas and I wanted it to be memorable. Indeed, it was. I thank myself for that. I thank myself for working 50-60 a week and bringing home $1000-$1200 checks. I thank myself for not complaining or calling in when I was sick. I applaud myself for getting my daughter and my niece everything they asked for. Seeing all of their faces Christmas morning was priceless. I cried I was so happy. I cried because I was proud of myself for my hardwork. I cried because I remember never seeing my father during this time because of all the overtime he put in for my selfishness and me wanting everything. I thank him for instilling that same characteristic in me. I know how he feels.

2010 will be an even better year. I’m shifting my focus. I’m removing people from my life who are not positive and who pray for the day of my demise to come sooner than later. My number is changing. My address may change and I’m letting go and I’m starting over. I’ll continue to be both mom and dad for my son as my daughter’s father plays a significant role in her life. I am truly thankful for that. I’ve been patient for an entire year, not demanding much from my son’s father. Considering the fact that Imari lives with me and I provide for him solely, I didn’t think $100, which is half of the daycare premium, was too much to ask for. Apparently it was because I never received a cent. The most Imari has ever received from his “father” were the cheapest brand of diapers (46/56 count) and used clothes from a cousin. Everything that Imari has is a result of my labor. But you know what? Now that I think about it, when I say that, it doesn’t sound so bad.

All of this back and forth via statuses, text messages, etc. is ending with me. It’ll be continued but I won’t respond. I’m done with it. Maybe Imari’s father will change..but umm, who are we kidding? I know what will change; the fact that I won’t be on the defensive end or the offensive end or even caught in the middle of TWO narcisstic, egotistical, self-concious, immature, and insecure individuals. I will not be at the mercy of Karma. Nope, not me!

So, here’s my hand. I have no spades. Considering that fact, I’m walking away with all that I have, instead of continuing to play this game and losing everything. Everything I have, my worth, my dignity, my pride, my sanity, is weighed on a different scale. I’m of a higher caliber. *throws in hand, gets up and pushes chair under the table.. looks for the nearest booth to cash in her chips..*

Sunday, my little family and I went to see “The Princess and the Frog”. It was AMAZING! Even that is an understatement. Aside from the kids having to use the bathroom at the climax of the movie, they enjoyed it, nevertheless! Even Imari, my son, was clapping his hands and danced to the songs. Speaking of which, the music was simply amazing!

The movie made me laugh, almost cry, and had me on edge. I LOVED it! Not to mention, Prince Naveen is gorgeous!! I mean, I was completely taken by this guy’s beauty. Tiana was a beautiful princess as well.

The movie really captured the culture of New Orleans with the well drawn setting, the singing, and .. well, EVERYTHING! This is THE BEST animated Disney movie ever created. I think I’m going to see it again!

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Happy Halloween Ghouls and Gals! I’m excited! Mainly because this is Imari’s first Halloween and Iyanna is always excited to get dressed up. I figured this year Iyanna will be the Princess and Imari will be the frog. However, when I bought the costume for Imari, it fit. Now, he can’t even stretch his legs out. So, after work I’m off to find costumes for the kids. I think I may even buy a pumpkin and carve it too.

Iyanna’s birthday is this Monday and I think I’m going to have a little celebration at her daycare after she gets out of school. I don’t even know what I’m going to get her yet besides her first big girl bike with the helmet, knee pads, and elbow pads. Besides that, I have no idea what I’m going to get her. She’ll be happy with ANYTHING. She’s been wanting an iPod touch and a Wii but I’m saving all of that for Xmas.

Anyways, safe trick or treating guys!

–The new little chat feature that you see is something I saw on Jetice’s site! It’s sooooo cool!

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