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I. Redefining my Circle of “Friends”

I’ve always been the aloof individual in my circle of “friends”. I’ve never been the type to quickly assume or criticize anyone’s behavior before evaluating my actions or decisions I’ve made when I was in a similar situation. I always render my undivided attention whether the situation intrigues me or not. I am always the one to offer an impartial opinion as it is requested. Yet, I am not given the same courtesy.

I understand that no one is obligated to treat me as I treat them. However, when a friendship is established, I believe that doing such is the least one can do. I discuss my personal life with a select few that are actually in my circle of friends. It seems as though to one person, telling me everything that she hears about my son’s father is her duty.

She feels she is obliged to tell me how he tried to get with her while she was engaged, how he has more children than he actually tells me and how he recently got another girl pregnant. It would be different if he and I were still together, but we’re not. I feel that if I made any type of suggestion that him and I were together, then it would be appropriate to share. Even in that case, it isn’t because I am not one to entertain gossip and hearsay. On top of that, he’s basically free to do whatever his heart, mind, soul and body desires. I’m not sure if she likes him, nor do I care. Rather, it seems she just prefers to be the bearer of bad news. I thought I was just being my analytical and technical self, as I usually am, but this was pointed out by others. They are much more patient. The shit is getting really annoying to me!

With all that has been stated, I have officially distanced myself from her. It’s not because I’m tired of hearing it. It’s not because I’m tired of her negative energy. It’s not because of her stupidity and avid jealously or animosity that it appears she has towards me and my other friends. Rather, it’s because if she continues, I’m afraid of my retaliation.