When I look at my parents, I realize that the love that they share, is something that I long for. Their type of love is something that I covet and heavily desire. It’s been 25 years since they vowed everlasting allegiance to one another. I’ve never noticed how deep their affection ran until I realized that a love like what they share, is something I yearn to attain.

I know that it’s going to take a little time to find true adoration. More importantly, I’ve acquired more patience for this feat I have yet to accomplish. I understand that it’s going to take more effort on my end since I never have much time. I’ve realized that I have to make time. I’m slowly embracing and accepting that fact; however, I can’t seem to get past these barriers that exist. Mind you, these barriers are not of my own creation and establishment. All praises and recognition are due to a lot of the behavior, the lifestyles, and the actions of those that are dear to me.

I’m aware of the type of love that I’d want. More importantly, I’m aware of the type of love that I deserve. I’ve acquired a myriad of useful knowledge that will allow me to recognize love in it’s rarest form. I know that I’d want someone like my father–hardworking, dedicated, family-oriented, loving, and faithful. I’m definitely not looking for a father figure as my father has never lacked in that department, I’m simply making myself noticeable for a man that possesses most of the same qualities that exist within my father.

With that being said, I’m going to make the time to meet someone. I strongly feel that I’m ready to be in a relationship with one–a monogamus relationship with a real man. I know what love is and I feel it everyday in regards to my children and my family. But, I also want a love that also involves intimacy and romance. I want to find someone I can experience mutuality with. I strongly believe that I’ve given myself enough time to heal and to be able to be alone without feeling a sense of loneliness. It’s time to put myself back on the market.