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Sigh. I must make God laugh all the time. I’m sure I have Him in stitches.

Summer rain. One of the things I love most about the summer. Add my covers with a really good, addictive read and I’m all set.

I love when it rains because for that time, everything seems still. And that stillness allows my mind to wander while wondering. Questioning all the what ifs. It permits me to have the chance to reflect..allowing my introversion to have its way with me.

And then the rain stops. And I plan. For change. For maintaining. Napping. I plan to do this. I plan to do that. I plan to go out and enjoy the sunshine. Bask in it. Bathe in it. Laugh in it. Make memories. Share my life. I plan to go here.. and there.. and everywhere.

And then the rain begins again..

I swear it seems to rain when I have everything figured out. When everything is planned. Foreseen. When my schemes are as concrete as they can be.

Simultaneously, it rains when I’m troubled. When it seems like I don’t know what to do next. When I can’t figure out my next move. When I’m confused. Troubled. Perplexed. When my heart weighs a ton and it seems as though I can’t bear its weight.

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A mix of emotions come over me while I watch the drops throw themselves down onto the pavement and against my window. I feel a certain way when the rain falls gracefully on the blades of grass. Relieved when I realize that this world, so unpredictable and massive, relies on the tiniest drop of rain to refuel.

And God tells me to calm myself. To Be still.

And I do. I still myself.

And then the sun comes out.

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25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

inspired by Gozika & Kay.

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6 Comments
  1. Tamara

    May 30, 2013 at 3:47 pm

    Ahh you’re so poetic in your thoughts, I just love it. I’m glad you share them with the world (: I wish I could say I have that “get up and go” attitude when the weather is nice, but in all honesty I am stuck in rain mode of the time. Haha! Just sad. In anycase, I am trying to keep myself in “school mode” as not to get lazy so I can just hop up and go when my job starts (tomorrow!) and not be sloth-like.

    Thanks so much for the compliment on my hair! I remember when it was first growing out and I was feeling “some kinda way” about it. I really had to get out of that and the mindset of “what others” would say. Every time I take it out of the braids and wear it out I fall in love with it again. Go figure!! I’m proud of my progress. As for you ma’am, I can’t believe you torture your hair at the salon *gasps* lol Just kidding. You got a lot of hair on that head of yours, I would want some help also! You can do the natural journey ma’am!! And you wouldn’t believe how many awesome and creative bun styles that are out now. If my hair wasn’t so “puff” I would try them. It will be awhile before I can try any type of bunning method; but oh well. Go for it! You’re gorgeous in any way you decide to wear your curls- that is for sure. PS- There is a “Shop the Aisle” natural hair event being hosted at the Walmart in BR (Cortana Place). It’s June 8th from 1-3pm. I plan on going!! Lord knows I need not buy any more hair products, but I want to go and see what I can learn. :) Just thought I’d let you know in case you had the time to drop by.

    Good luck on your search in a new and rewarding job! By the end of the semester, that is exactly how I felt with my job. I was so excited at first. But, of course they tell you one thing when they hire you and it’s a whole diff. story once you’re working. I wasn’t doing anything that I THOUGHT I would be. Far from Graphic Design work…the stress just wasn’t worth it. I’m happy in my decision.

    1. Rae

      May 31, 2013 at 11:03 am

      Good on on your first day. I’m still looking for summer employment and I think I’ve come across something ideal until school starts back in August.

      I will most likely be at the event, but WHYYYYY did they choose Cortana Walmart? UGH!

    2. Rae

      May 31, 2013 at 2:19 pm

      Are you also going to the Natural Hair show?

  2. Nellie

    May 31, 2013 at 8:33 am

    This is so beautifully written. Sometimes I wish I could quiet all the crazy in my brain and be still. Working on it.

    Have a great weekend dear.
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  3. Evani @ Simply Evani

    May 31, 2013 at 10:54 am

    I know EXACTLY what you mean about the fact it seems to rain in conjunction with my mood. I hope you find the peace you’re look for soon, the job hunt is not fun :/

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