I have accepted fear as a part of life – specifically the fear of change… I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back.
Erica Jong

I have a lot to prepare for next week. I have a 200+ line program to compile and run, I have to arrange for child care for my children, prepare meal plans and lunches for work, finish a 5-7 page paper, prepare a presentation, figure out how I’m going to take the last two classes to complete my master’s degree, and the friggin list goes on and on. As you can see, there’s a lot that I have to figure out. My life is about to change, for the better might I add, and I am beginning to feel a bit overwhelmed and anxious. Scared even.

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I guess I should explain the type of fear that I have. I’m not scared to do the job. In fact, I can’t wait to start and transition into my role. I just don’t want anything to get in the way or hinder me from doing my best and exerting my efforts. I’ve always had to figure out how to make everything work, but the difference now is that in the past, those were just jobs that paid the bills. Quitting was always an option even though it was a last resort. But now, this is my career. And starting on the wrong front with a company such as IBM is definitely not a good look.

I’ve been compromising, sacrificing, burning gas, rearranging my schedule, and losing sleep all my life. All. My. Life. The thing is that I know things will work out. They always work out. I always figure it out.

But it’s hard to ignore this fear. The fact is that it’s there. It exists. Brewing and seething inside me. But I refuse to feed it from this day forward.

Confront your fears, list them, get to know them, and only then will you be able to put them aside and move ahead.
Jerry Giles

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  1. Valla

    July 13, 2013 at 10:29 am

    Most definitely you will do just fine and when you finish these last two classes everything from here on out will be for the better. Positivity and faith is something I always have to remind myself and with my going back to college 2 years later I feel the same way you do lol more so scared

  2. Kat

    July 14, 2013 at 3:32 pm

    All the best. You got this. Let your fears be your motivation. Everything will work out just fine.

  3. G K

    July 14, 2013 at 5:44 pm

    I know EXACTLY what you’re going through, and I want you to LISTEN TO ME:


    I know that sounds so corny and cliche’ but, I do NOT want what happened to me happen to you. I let fear rule me when I was in a similar position once, and it WON. I failed at my goal. That was NOT a good feeling. I had it in me all along, but fear completely took over my thoughts and actions. YOU CAN HANDLE THIS. Stop whispering to yourself that you can’t because YOU CAN.

    We’re rooting for you!

  4. Amber

    July 14, 2013 at 9:11 pm

    Focus on the fact that everything you need has already been provided, and you have already succeeded. See your ending from the starting line — you’ve won the race already and you are VICTORIOUS!

  5. Mionna H.

    July 14, 2013 at 10:32 pm

    Your fears are very normal!! The thing you must remember is what you’ve said…things will workout! You’re very capable of doing the job, or else IBM wouldn’t have hired you to do it!! Now…all you have to do…is do it! You know you can!!…and good luck!

  6. April

    July 14, 2013 at 11:17 pm

    I wish you the best! You have a lot of things going on and your fear is perfectly normal. Just keep facing them head on. Things will turn out for the best.

  7. Vett

    July 14, 2013 at 11:38 pm

    best of luck with all you have to do! great post to remind yourself that it will all be okay, nothing to fear!! :)

  8. Trice

    July 15, 2013 at 8:16 pm

    I totally feel where you’re coming from. Fear has kept me from doing things that I really had a desire to do but due to complacency I didn’t. I’m just now starting to step out on faith a bit and do more of the things I want to despite what others may say or despite inner fear. Good luck with everything, I’m sure you’re going to be a great success!

  9. L. Providence

    July 19, 2013 at 3:55 pm

    Much success to you in the future.

    “There is nothing to find, only to realize. There is nothing to become, only to be. There is nothing to fear, only to love.” – Marianne Williamson


  10. Kay

    July 22, 2013 at 7:09 pm

    Fear is one thing I do have but I face it head on. Thats what you gotta do. Things will change for the good and its what you’ve been working towards.

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