I have accepted fear as a part of life – specifically the fear of change… I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back.
I have a lot to prepare for next week. I have a 200+ line program to compile and run, I have to arrange for child care for my children, prepare meal plans and lunches for work, finish a 5-7 page paper, prepare a presentation, figure out how I’m going to take the last two classes to complete my master’s degree, and the friggin list goes on and on. As you can see, there’s a lot that I have to figure out. My life is about to change, for the better might I add, and I am beginning to feel a bit overwhelmed and anxious. Scared even.
I guess I should explain the type of fear that I have. I’m not scared to do the job. In fact, I can’t wait to start and transition into my role. I just don’t want anything to get in the way or hinder me from doing my best and exerting my efforts. I’ve always had to figure out how to make everything work, but the difference now is that in the past, those were just jobs that paid the bills. Quitting was always an option even though it was a last resort. But now, this is my career. And starting on the wrong front with a company such as IBM is definitely not a good look.
I’ve been compromising, sacrificing, burning gas, rearranging my schedule, and losing sleep all my life. All. My. Life. The thing is that I know things will work out. They always work out. I always figure it out.
But it’s hard to ignore this fear. The fact is that it’s there. It exists. Brewing and seething inside me. But I refuse to feed it from this day forward.
Confront your fears, list them, get to know them, and only then will you be able to put them aside and move ahead.