My spare time is minimal as of late. The discussions that take place in my Artificial Intelligence class have been nothing short but interesting but they are getting more and more in depth. And I love it. I love how the professor goes off on a tangent so often that somehow his little tidbits end up being related to the topic at hand. I love classes that are engaging and that are structured to invoke conversation and debate and collaboration.


But while my professor is asking me to go deeper within my mind and come up with the unimaginable, so is my job. Today had to be the most demanding day that I’ve ever had so far. I was originally told to go one route and then all of a sudden I was instructed to do something completely different–AND to have it completed by tomorrow. Go ahead and pray for me.


I spent the entire day coding and debugging in a language that I am not too comfortable with at all. But today’s challenge couldn’t care less about my doubts or reservations about it. And well, I can say that I’ve gotten most of it done and there’s a good chance that I’ll be finished on tomorrow.


So I haven’t sank yet. Every day I’m learning to just dive in and make my way to the surface. I’m digging deep within myself to find whatever it is my interviewers and professors and family and friends see and saw in me to pray me to this very moment in my life. I’m digging deep to find those attributes and I’m allowing them to surface. And it’s working.

I pushed past my worries today and I had success. SUCCESS. Today was a great day! I hope it was for you guys as well.

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  1. Josie

    September 20, 2013 at 8:20 pm

    I’d say that you are doing more than staying afloat — you are also kicking ass!

  2. Jennifer

    September 21, 2013 at 2:33 pm

    You are so driven ! So I’m sure you will succeed in everything that you do. BTW , I love the little quote on your desk ! I’m going to have to get one of those :)

    1. Rae

      September 30, 2013 at 9:14 am

      Thanks love! I found them at a Walmart on clearance. I’m not sure if they still sell them but they were $.99 at the time.

  3. StefanyMari

    September 21, 2013 at 5:44 pm

    I absolutely love the way you write.

    & You haven’t sank… and you won’t. You’re one of the most driven people I’ve come across. Believe it or not whenever I feel overwhelmed with school and other obligations, I often think of you and remember that it’s all very possible.


    1. Rae

      September 30, 2013 at 9:17 am

      That definitely makes me feel good and believe it or not, it’s the reason why I blog. I wish I could have gotten back into blogging after my whole decade hiatus. Had I connected sooner with people like me, those dark moments in my life would have most likely been so much easier to get through.

  4. Nellie

    September 21, 2013 at 7:39 pm

    I am happy that you had a good day. It reminds me of one of the hardest times of my life which was when I was 6 months pregnant, writing a thesis to finally finish grad school all while working full time. The hard work is SO worth it!

    1. Rae

      September 30, 2013 at 9:18 am

      You said Thesis! Hide me! I’m not ready. LOL! But your comment is inspiring! (:

  5. Jessica L

    September 22, 2013 at 9:14 am

    Hah! That crap- going one direction and being told to go in another and have it done TODAY- happens to us quite often! I feel your frustration! It’s the challenges that makes us better, I always tell myself. Your AI class sounds quite interesting- well and so does your job, writing code! :) Hang in there! -Jess L

    1. Rae

      September 30, 2013 at 9:18 am

      It’s true. That one instruction made me dig deep and push myself.
      Thanks, Jess!

  6. Jhan

    September 24, 2013 at 10:44 am

    Praying for strength and perseverance for you. Although, I do agree with another commenter that you are really driven and I’m sure you’ll make it through whatever comes your way. :-)

  7. Miya

    September 24, 2013 at 8:24 pm

    So happy that you had a great day in the end! :)
    & I will pray for you!

    You are an inspiration because you’re having a really busy time & it seems as if people are asking A LOT of you at this moment but you’re pushing through.


  8. Kay

    September 26, 2013 at 4:28 pm

    There is no doubt in my mind that you can handle this. You’re too determined to fall short.

  9. The Indie

    October 2, 2013 at 9:49 am

    This was such a wonderful read. At first, I was a little nervous because you sounded so worried but it was humbling to see your gratitude as you turned around and looked at the bright side. I always try to remember when I am feeling overwhelmed in life that God doesn’t give more to us than He thinks we can handle so clearly I can handle it, just gotta find the strength to. Which can be a little hard sometimes lol. But it was great that you found success as you dug deep, I bet it was so gratifying. You’re an awesome woman

  10. Mel

    October 11, 2013 at 11:27 pm

    I get so nervous when Im in knee deep in a language i’m not comfortable…I loose sleep over it and then when I’m done I think about how happy I am from all that i learned from it…but when I’m in it I’m scared to death! LOL

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