When I started this blog 6 years ago, it was mainly used as my outlet — my source of release from a tumultuous life of a 2x single mama. Blogging allowed me to deal with everything that was going around me without driving myself completely insane. Life was hard — harder than I could ever put into words for a post. I was so lost. Most times not knowing if I was coming or going due to all of the coming and going. I shared a good bit, even if it was only available in private posts. I shared and it got me through and helped me find my way back to myself.

Don’t be sleeping on your level cause it’s beauty in the struggle..
It’s beauty in the struggle, ugliness in the success
Hear my words or listen to my signal of distress” — Love Yourz, J. Cole

Sharing got me through an abusive relationship, 6 years of undergrad, 3 years at my job, 3 months of unemployment, 2 years of graduate school, 2 years in my career, but most of all, it got me through six moves to different residences. SIX. I think the only thing that has been constant and unchanging for my family is where we attend school. If I could go back, I’d probably stay put a little longer in my last apartment. My townhouse seemed like a dream come true, until it wasn’t. But everything happens for a reason. I can’t begin to say that enough. Had I’d not gone through what I’ve gone through, maybe I wouldn’t have worked so hard towards providing much more stability for my family. One thing I can say is that they are so versatile and trusting of me. They can handle and adjust to so much more than I thought.

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It will take an act of nature to make me move for a very, very, very long time. I have never found a place more perfect. It has definitely been a journey — but I asked God and it was provided to me. God knew my heart. . my struggle. Literally. Man, ya’ll can’t even imagine what I’ve been through. . how many tears I’ve cried and prayers I’ve prayed to reach this point. The point where I have a place to call home and a beautiful family to share it with.

No more moving. No more packing. No more unruly neighbors. No more potholes. No more trash in the yard. No more AC and plumbing issues that caused us to be displaced for weeks. Now, I can admit with relief, that we are home–the place where we’ll grow and laugh and share and be in each other’s company.. We are here.

Finally.

My God, we are Home.

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12 Comments
  1. Cece

    August 17, 2015 at 12:58 pm

    Writing is such an outlet for me as well. What an amazing feeling and what an incredible journey you have been on! Glad you are HOME. Our living space is such a huge part of our lives and if it’s a negative space it has a negative impact on your life in so many ways.
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    1. Rae

      August 17, 2015 at 3:30 pm

      That’s so true. Your home is supposed to be your safe haven.. the place that you go when you want to escape and just be alone to yourself for a while. When your living environment no longer contributes to your peace, something has to change.

  2. Law_Fal

    August 17, 2015 at 1:51 pm

    Amen girl!! I’m so happy for you and proud of you. Yassssssss!!!! Home. Yes indeed.
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    1. Rae

      August 17, 2015 at 3:31 pm

      Thanks Fal! It’s been a looonnnng time coming!

  3. Daenel T.

    August 18, 2015 at 7:50 am

    Praising God with you. I’m so happy to read this. I’ve said it before and I’m going to say it again: I’m so very proud of you.
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  4. Mrs. Pancakes

    August 19, 2015 at 7:10 am

    Coming home is just the best feeling in the world! Congrats!

  5. Amanda Nicole

    August 20, 2015 at 6:16 pm

    Congratulations on the place you now call HOME.

    Life has started darling. Your journey is a beautiful one.

    I’m currently going through finding my place call home. But the story will be difficult but the journey will be worth it.
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  6. Amanda Nicole

    August 20, 2015 at 6:18 pm

    Congratulations on the place you now call home!

    I’m currently going through finding my place called HOME.

    The journey will be worth it.
    He has feelings tooMy Profile

  7. Shannon

    August 22, 2015 at 1:02 pm

    I’m REALLY happy that all of your hard work has paid off & gotten you to a stable place in your life. You’ve earned it!
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  8. Mia

    August 22, 2015 at 4:57 pm

    I feel like you were speaking my truth something alot of us are afraid of sharing or going through, we harbor our feelings and need to express what faults we have but I love how open and honest you are. You have a beautiful family and a beautiful home and pray that god continues to bless you on your journey in life love.

  9. vanessa

    August 24, 2015 at 7:43 am

    *virtual hug*
    the bible says “ask and you shall receive” and i’m happy God has granted with serenity, an amazing family and now, a beautiful home.
    you’re deserving and i’m sure your little ones are so proud of their supermama.

    :)
    vanessa
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  10. Teems

    September 1, 2015 at 2:26 pm

    Congrats on the house! Glad everything is falling into place for you.

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