Rae La Soul

I’ve been feeling a bit uninspired and just completely apathetic towards a lot of things. Things at work have changed for me and it’s definitely one of the contributing factors to all the uncertainty that I have been dealing with lately. Some situations that a few people have experienced have affected me — not because I was involved, but because I’m an empathetic person.

The last few weeks have been weighing heavy on me. The weight has forced me to sit down, be completely honest with myself, and do a reevaluation in particular areas in my life.. and with my career.. and with my family. I’ve been forced to come to terms with things that garner so much more of my attention than what should be administered. I had to put my life — my habits, my thoughts, my beliefs, etc. — under a microscope. And it’s time to do some refocusing and shifting.

It’s interesting how situations can really affect you even if you’re only indirectly related to the situation. I guess that’s what happens when you have the ability to be empathetic. And without going into too much detail, I’m just a little bit disheartened that in 2016, the career world still doesn’t fully take into account a woman’s work and her worth. Maybe I’ll elaborate on all of this in the future, but for right now, I just need to get this off my chest. Everything I’ve seen and heard in the past few weeks, I need to release all of that off my soul.

I just need to vent about how hard it is for a mommy in IT.

How hard it is to be supportive of your spouse while trying to have something for yourself.

How hard it is just to be a mommy who wants a career. It can be done, but it damn sure ain’t easy. And women are not given enough fucking credit.