It’s been a few weeks since my last update. As much as I love to come here and share my thoughts and the happenings of my life, I needed to just step away. Sometimes that’s necessary — to break the cycle that is your every day life and do something new, or to not do anything at all. Or perhaps, a combination of both.
Recently, some things have come to light. Truths that were thought to be buried. Words buried that should have been spoken. Discussions that should have been had and things that should have been let go. It’s been a whirlwind of ups and downs, lefts and rights, ins and outs. And this isn’t the result of a hex placed on me from a fake babalawo that Harper had us hooked up with. (I’m blaming it all on her.) Or at least I hope not. LOL! That’s a story for another day. Cuba was a blast, by the way.
Whatever it is, I’m focusing my energy on how to deal with it all. Or perhaps I’m only saying that because that’s the rational & responsible thing to do, but deep down, there’s a part of me that really doesn’t give a damn about certain things anymore. My life has changed in a way that has me questioning my faith. And those changes have me reminiscing that exact moment in time where things seemed perfect. Like yesterday. Or the last 12 hours when I was oblivious to it all.
So maybe that’s what April was for.. or is for — to sort through everything and adjust my energy accordingly. To take a moment.. a pause from the everyday and the blindsides, and recenter myself. A pause to convince myself that I did nothing wrong. That I did everything I could and what I was supposed to do. A pause to focus on my peace. And in turn, allow anything and anyone who doesn’t align with my peace to fall by the wayside.