I realized that the month is almost over and I haven’t posted anything new here on the blog. A part of me has felt a bit guilty about the lack of updates, but another part of me was completely unbothered. Lately, I’ve been struggling with the thought of continuing to blog here or not. I rant and rave about how blogging used to be, wishing that there were more true bloggers still blogging, and here I am ready to throw in the towel.
After attending BlogHer last year, the way I managed my blog changed. While BlogHer allowed me to meet a ton of bloggers that I’ve followed over the years and I learned a ton about new-age blogging, it sort of gave me a different perspective. It shed light on what blogging is now and truthfully, I didn’t want to be a part of it. I’m not really an individual that is resistant to change, so I adjusted a few things here and there. While I saw positive changes in regards to the blog, I didn’t feel as if it was a good thing for me. I gave entirely too much attention to page views and visitors and numbers that all these “How to Make Your Blog Successful” blogging gurus say to pay attention to. I didn’t feel like this was a space that truly enveloped who I was as an individual.
I reached a point where I heavily contemplated giving up on this space completely. A good but of my favorite bloggers had done it and I finally understood what may have driven them to that decision. But then I read this post, and I was reminded why I do this. Why almost 20 years in, I still blog. Because it’s not about the numbers. It’s not about the page views. It’s not about the freebies and comped shit that new age bloggers rave about. The posting schedules. Beating social media algorithms. It’s about being true to self and remembering why you started.
And while I don’t know how many more years I have here in this space, for right now, I’ll be here. Right where it all started.