“I have realized that the past and future are real illusions, that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is.”
— Alan Watts
This world can be so demanding sometimes. It can be so cogent in convincing us that we need more than we have or that we need to be more than we are. There was a point in my life where I was always wishing and wanting everything that seemed out of my reach. There were moments where I didn’t even know who I was as an individual. I made a home in coveting, cyclically lusting after things that diminished my ability to be more appreciative of what I had when I had plenty.
It took years, a death, and more years to rewire my mentality. Life is so much more than wanting to alter past occurrences. It’s more than wishing away tomorrow when it hasn’t even been born. Life is about being engulfed and completely submerged in what is happening around you in that very moment. It’s about appreciating the now.
This morning, I took inventory of my life–the successes of my career, the growth of my children and family. I thought about all of the things that make me who I am and the life that reflects who I am as an individual. Undeniably, I am blessed. There is no other way to put it. And that’s not to brag or boast, but to remind myself to take a moment and appreciate all the sacrifices, the hardships, and those soul-wrenching lessons that I grew throught to get to this very moment. It’s to encourage myself to keep going. To keep pushing, striving.. climbing and achieving goals. To feel the fear and push past it. To be grateful for all that I have, all that I’ve lost, and to make room for all that’s to come.
Wherever you are, learn to be there. Right there in that very moment. Learn to be where your feet are and appreciate it.