It’s been a while since I’ve been here and even commenting around the blogosphere. My Google Reader is overflowing and so is every other inbox.. awaiting responses, comments and replies. There is so much going on in my life right now that I’m simply trying to stay afloat. It’s been hard. No, it’s been past difficult. . It’s been an extremely rough time.
My mom is very sick. Or, was very sick but as of now, she’s on a strong path to recovery. My family and I are adjusting to a new normal and I’m sure it’s going to be even harder for her. There are mornings when I wake up and I am still in disbelief, or maybe even denial. I wake up and believe that my mom is at home or outside by the lake behind their house. Instead, she’s in the hospital adjusting to life as an amputee. But by the Grace of God, she is still with us.
The hospital staff knows us by name. They are sympathetic to our situation and it’s comforting to know so many people care. They ask me how graduate school is going.. They ask how my sister is feeling, being that she is about 7 months pregnant now. And they make sure my dad is coping. And he is, but it’s pretty evident that it’s hard for him. I can still remember seeing my dad after discovering that my mom was in the hospital. He was so scared and he hugged me and just cried. Do you know how hard it is to hear your dad cry? A man that always held it together for you? But I allowed him to be weak for that little moment that he cried on my shoulder.. lending him just a bit of that strength that he instilled in me.
One thing that this occurrence has taught me is that even if you think you have a fool-proof plan and everything is in complete order, at any given time, it could change and your life can be thrown into complete disarray. So right now, I’m trying to restore order, maintain my composure, and persevere. Persevere. There goes that word again.
Each day, we’re getting stronger. Each day, my mom is getting stronger. We still have a long way to go, but with Faith and Prayer, we’ll get through this. We’ll make the accommodations necessary to get used to our new normal. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.