It’s been a while since I’ve been here and even commenting around the blogosphere. My Google Reader is overflowing and so is every other inbox.. awaiting responses, comments and replies. There is so much going on in my life right now that I’m simply trying to stay afloat. It’s been hard. No, it’s been past difficult. . It’s been an extremely rough time.
My mom is very sick. Or, was very sick but as of now, she’s on a strong path to recovery. My family and I are adjusting to a new normal and I’m sure it’s going to be even harder for her. There are mornings when I wake up and I am still in disbelief, or maybe even denial. I wake up and believe that my mom is at home or outside by the lake behind their house. Instead, she’s in the hospital adjusting to life as an amputee. But by the Grace of God, she is still with us.
The hospital staff knows us by name. They are sympathetic to our situation and it’s comforting to know so many people care. They ask me how graduate school is going.. They ask how my sister is feeling, being that she is about 7 months pregnant now. And they make sure my dad is coping. And he is, but it’s pretty evident that it’s hard for him. I can still remember seeing my dad after discovering that my mom was in the hospital. He was so scared and he hugged me and just cried. Do you know how hard it is to hear your dad cry? A man that always held it together for you? But I allowed him to be weak for that little moment that he cried on my shoulder.. lending him just a bit of that strength that he instilled in me.
One thing that this occurrence has taught me is that even if you think you have a fool-proof plan and everything is in complete order, at any given time, it could change and your life can be thrown into complete disarray. So right now, I’m trying to restore order, maintain my composure, and persevere. Persevere. There goes that word again.
Each day, we’re getting stronger. Each day, my mom is getting stronger. We still have a long way to go, but with Faith and Prayer, we’ll get through this. We’ll make the accommodations necessary to get used to our new normal. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Shannon
September 9, 2012 at 12:04 pmI’m sorry to hear about what your family is going through! I’ll keep you all in my prayers.
G K
September 9, 2012 at 5:23 pmOh goodness — so sorry to hear this. Glad to hear your mom is better, though. I can feel your faith in God through your post, so I know you all will be okay. Continue to trust Him. I’ve said a prayer for you and your fam.
Meekyleia
September 9, 2012 at 8:39 pmI pray that things continue to get better for you and your family. I will keep you guys in my prayers. <3
Mimi
September 10, 2012 at 7:18 amPrayers are up. You said the most important thing, “But by the grace of God she is still with us.” As you know some of us aren’t so fortunate so rest in that and in knowing that complete “strangers” are wishing you and your family well. What is normal anyway!
Katrice
September 10, 2012 at 9:02 amI hope your mom continues to recover and you continue show your amazing strength. Hard times don’t last always. You and your family are in my prayers.
LaNeshe
September 11, 2012 at 10:49 amMy family just went through something similar with my grandma. We thought she was going to die, and I’ve never seen my grandfather so sad. Thank God she is alive and well. She did come out of the situation blind, and needing physical therapy… so I know what you mean by new normal. We’re still all working through it and she’s still recovering but I am just so happy she is still here. I wish you and your family the best!
K. Rock
September 12, 2012 at 8:27 amI will be thinking about you and your family. I am so sorry to hear about your struggles.
GG
September 12, 2012 at 5:19 pmSending love and prayers and virtual hugs your way. Keep the faith and take it one day at a time. I’ll be thinking of you.
Teems
September 15, 2012 at 5:31 amWow. Wish you and your family all the strength you need. Sending prayers your way.
Marie Young
September 16, 2012 at 9:42 amGood to know your mother has seen some recovery. I hope things get better for her and your family!
Kiara
September 16, 2012 at 2:12 pmHope things get better for you and your family! Praying for you all, stay strong!
DaenelT
September 17, 2012 at 4:28 pmOh, honey, I’m so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family for strength and faith through this period of adjustment. Send you all kinds of hugs.
Kay
September 23, 2012 at 2:16 amYou and your family will be in my prayers. Take it one day at a time. That’s all you can do for now. My heart goes out to all of you.
Romney
November 5, 2012 at 5:14 pmHey! I am going through your blog trying to catch up on what is going on with you. Please know that I am thinking of you! My mother is also a recent amputee, so if you ever need to talk please let me know! I know our situations might be different but do know that I am here.