Rae La Soul

Ok, remember when I told you guys in the previous post how I would be enjoying my time off for the next two months? Well, that plan didn’t work out and I couldn’t be more than grateful. Here’s why..

I had the intention to go to summer school and was awarded an assistantship to cover the costs. Then I discovered from the financial office that I would still have to come up with the dollars up front to register. $1760 to be exact. And when I was told that, summer was out for me and I took that as a sign to just find a part time job, rest, and prepare for the Fall semester.

So I began looking for a job–filling out application after application. It started to annoy me that I was being rejected mainly because I was “overqualified” for much of what I applied for. Now, I can agree with them because my intentions were to only work for the summer and then eventually quit. I was finally able to find something suitable and surely I’d be bored out of my mind doing that type of work. Since I only had to deal with that for three months, I sucked it up and I prepared myself for it.

But God.. well, He had something else in mind. Remember when I told you all the best way to make God laugh with all your plans and routines? Well He and I had a nice little chuckle this week. But again, I’m grateful.

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. -Matthew 7:7

So what am I so grateful about? Well, I have an assistantship where I get to learn how to use a 3-D printing machine that will construct body parts for a humanoid robot, which is also a part of my special project to complete my Master’s degree. In addition to that, I get to teach two robotics courses to younger kids for the next four weeks. And might I add, the pay is wonderful!

Of course, I still had to come out of my pocket, and I was prepared to pay the $800 and just get reimbursed within the following weeks. But instead, I was able to defer what was left after tuition was deducted from my assistantship paycheck, which was $780. So in the end, I only had to pay $274 up front, which will be reimbursed.

I cried today. I mean I really boo-hooed. Because everything worked out. Because I am so grateful. Because I won’t feel as though I’m wasting my time at a place for three months until I begin teaching in the Fall again.

But most importantly, I cried because for the first time in my life, I realized that I refused to worry about what was to come. Because I had finally learned how to “Be still.”