Rae La Soul

I’ve been talking about how I wanted to do some new things here on the blog and even though I’ve found the time, the resources are not readily available now. You can read that as I want to occasionally do outfit posts but I don’t have a tripod, a photographer over 4 feet, or a good backdrop that doesn’t include Lightening McQueen or Princess Tiana as of yet. So as of now, enjoy these selfies.. in my bathroom.. with my phone. #NeNeBloop!

 
Shirt – Mossimo, Target (thrifted)
Skirt – New York & Company (thrifted)
Bracelet – Touches by Tircuit
Necklace – Ebay
Heels (that you can’t see) – Style&Co, Macy’s

Work has been pretty slow this week. Not because I don’t have anything to do, but because most of my friends that I’ve made here are out at client sites or other offices in other states. And I’m still here.

And I feel some type of way about it.

I love traveling. I love being in new places and seeing new things. But being a single parent limits my freedom to travel with my job as much as I’d love to. I’ve had to pass on three opportunities to different states that I’ve always wanted to visit. And it sucked for a short while and then I got over it.. a little. I’m sort of ok because I know that when the time presents itself, I’ll be able to travel as much as I’d like to because that’s what I want. And I pretty much always find a way to get what I want.

We must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know the Universe is conspiring in our favor, even though we may not understand how. – The Alchemist

When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. – The Alchemist

I’m realizing that my inability to travel at this time is for a reason. I My kids need me. They need me to make sure they are doing their homework correctly. They need me to draw their bubble baths. They need me to give them their bedtime snacks and let them stay up just a few minutes past bedtime. They need me to hover over them while they sleep and study how much they’ve grown tremendously in what seems like the last few days. Being gone throughout the week and only home on weekends wouldn’t be fair to them. Perhaps if I didn’t have to spend so much time away, it’ll be ok. But 2-4 months and possibly 6 months away.. no way I can do that. There’s no way I want to be away from them that long. They don’t need another absent parent, so to speak. We’ve been through hell and high water together. They keep me balanced and focused and determined. I need them. I need them here with me.

So I can’t just hop on a plane and go on the company’s dime. I can’t take advantage of these awesome opportunities right now. I get that. I have to wait. I have to be patient. And if I recall correctly, that last time I patiently waited, I obtained my Bachelor’s, started grad school immediately afterwards, taught my first undergrad course, then taught my robotics course, and now I’m here. I am here putting all those opportunities I had to wait on to use.

#SheReadsTruth delivered the real to me via email. I need to stop and take stock and give glory, right now, today. I needed that.

The right time is going to come. And when it does, I’ll fly.. literally and figuratively.

Why fly? Simple. I’m not happy unless there’s some room between me and the ground. -Richard Bach