I’ve been talking about how I wanted to do some new things here on the blog and even though I’ve found the time, the resources are not readily available now. You can read that as I want to occasionally do outfit posts but I don’t have a tripod, a photographer over 4 feet, or a good backdrop that doesn’t include Lightening McQueen or Princess Tiana as of yet. So as of now, enjoy these selfies.. in my bathroom.. with my phone. #NeNeBloop!

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Shirt – Mossimo, Target (thrifted)
Skirt – New York & Company (thrifted)
Bracelet – Touches by Tircuit
Necklace – Ebay
Heels (that you can’t see) – Style&Co, Macy’s

Work has been pretty slow this week. Not because I don’t have anything to do, but because most of my friends that I’ve made here are out at client sites or other offices in other states. And I’m still here.

And I feel some type of way about it.

I love traveling. I love being in new places and seeing new things. But being a single parent limits my freedom to travel with my job as much as I’d love to. I’ve had to pass on three opportunities to different states that I’ve always wanted to visit. And it sucked for a short while and then I got over it.. a little. I’m sort of ok because I know that when the time presents itself, I’ll be able to travel as much as I’d like to because that’s what I want. And I pretty much always find a way to get what I want.

We must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know the Universe is conspiring in our favor, even though we may not understand how. – The Alchemist

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When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. – The Alchemist

I’m realizing that my inability to travel at this time is for a reason. I My kids need me. They need me to make sure they are doing their homework correctly. They need me to draw their bubble baths. They need me to give them their bedtime snacks and let them stay up just a few minutes past bedtime. They need me to hover over them while they sleep and study how much they’ve grown tremendously in what seems like the last few days. Being gone throughout the week and only home on weekends wouldn’t be fair to them. Perhaps if I didn’t have to spend so much time away, it’ll be ok. But 2-4 months and possibly 6 months away.. no way I can do that. There’s no way I want to be away from them that long. They don’t need another absent parent, so to speak. We’ve been through hell and high water together. They keep me balanced and focused and determined. I need them. I need them here with me.

So I can’t just hop on a plane and go on the company’s dime. I can’t take advantage of these awesome opportunities right now. I get that. I have to wait. I have to be patient. And if I recall correctly, that last time I patiently waited, I obtained my Bachelor’s, started grad school immediately afterwards, taught my first undergrad course, then taught my robotics course, and now I’m here. I am here putting all those opportunities I had to wait on to use.

#SheReadsTruth delivered the real to me via email. I need to stop and take stock and give glory, right now, today. I needed that.

The right time is going to come. And when it does, I’ll fly.. literally and figuratively.

Why fly? Simple. I’m not happy unless there’s some room between me and the ground. -Richard Bach

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9 Comments
  1. Evani

    September 13, 2013 at 4:32 pm

    This is such a well written post about living in the now, I loved it! I think some of you things listed are the reasons I’m begging Rob for us to wait awhile until children but I love the other reasons you brought up for why your children need you now. It’s really admirable to see Moms who can accomplish so much and still be so involved with their kids. There’s always the time after they’re gone to start traveling!

  2. Deia

    September 14, 2013 at 12:19 pm

    Haha, at Lightning McQueen and Princess Tiana in the background. Sounds like we have similar issues.
    Your patience has brought you some amazing things. I go back and forth with having issues with patience but I agree you would hate traveling that extent of time. Have you ever read The Dream Giver? Its a great book that I think you would like. Its an easy read too.

  3. Mrs. Pancakes

    September 14, 2013 at 8:27 pm

    the sacrifices we have to make now hopefully pay off later in life and i know it will for you. it sounds like you’ve made the right decision for your family at this point. i get that travel bug most days too! thank goodness for travel bloggers whom i can live vicariously through!

  4. Thank you

    September 15, 2013 at 1:06 pm

    Just found your blog & love it. You are an inspiration to all women;young, old, single, married, parent or daughter.

  5. Yetti-Writes

    September 15, 2013 at 3:04 pm

    What’s for you will not pass you, and what is meant to be, will be, when the time is right.

    It’s so funny, how similar our thought processes are.

    With time everything will work it’s way out, deep down we know this, though most days we want to fight it lol. But just as the alchemist said, the Universe will make it all happen. Here’s to you traveling in the future!

    xOx

  6. Sheriden

    September 16, 2013 at 7:34 am

    Patience is definitely one of my lesser acquired virtues but something I work on constantly because of it. It’s cool to see that I’m not the only one who struggles with I want it now, now, now and quietly shushing myself and saying, wait, it’d be so much better if you wait for it. Especially when there are so many positive things happening in the now. There is so much realness here and I commend you for your achievements because not a lot of women could accomplish that while being a mommy. So yeah, you’re a rockstar :) Love the outfit and in love with the quotes, The Alchemist has become my favorite book so it’s cool to see it quoted here :)

  7. Kay

    September 18, 2013 at 9:35 am

    Ok…so this post just brought me back. A cousin of mine gets to travel twice a year for her job even though she has kids. The difference between you, me and her is she has a big support group which is her family (brothers, sisters and mom) that live directly next door to her.

    I would like a job like that but I always thought about, what if I have to travel. I as well been offered job opportunities like this. The idea of leaving savannah in the care of someone else scares me. Troubles me, sometimes gives me the jitters. I like knowing I bathe her, dress her and tend to her needs at all times. I know the feeling.

    We will reach a time in our life that will allow us to do all of this. Patience is what I need to work on.

  8. Daenel T

    September 24, 2013 at 8:22 pm

    Such a cute outfit. I had to laugh at the Lightening McQueen and Princess Tiana line though. Too funny. Be patient, it will happen for you. I remember when my kids were little (4 under the age of 5), I thought I’d never be *me* again. Now they’re teens and getting ready to leave the nest but I wouldn’t trade those early years for anything. I’m closer to my kids and I have a greater sense of self.

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